Alright, now my thread got deleted?!? Were I given a reason I'd probably understand and move on, but seriously, what the fuck? This seems like a personal beef now and I'll have to walk on egg shells unless I want the full on power of a neckbeard playing Einsatzkommando on a fucking internet forum.

Got a thread locked because some dickwad mod thought it was a "sympathy" thread when it was just a question...

Mods = Dicks

NG =/= 4chan

Mods = Jannies = Dicks

Yeah, mods are dicks anywhere!

I've been doing something right.... right?

But seriously, thank you all for your support and love.

• Maz

Lately I've been questioned if I'm uploading "other people's art"

Short answer is no.

Long answer is:

Most of the "good art" I uploaded is minimum two years old, It's stuff I did with my friends taking the lead in some projects, currently I'm working on Sad Girl which, I don't feel it should have a "better art style" it's a dumb OC made to mock me with a dumb comic and a dumb and easy art style (Think Jerry Jackson)

On the other hand I can't have the luxury of spending a week on a drawing because I'm 2/3rds of the day busy, I'm an adult woman with a life, responsibilities and all that shit that gets in the way at the worst times.

So yeah, maybe I would love to add some shading to my latest piece or get better at drawing heads but I get obstacles in life, I have a family to support. And frankly being implied an art thief is demoralising.

To compare this

With this:

Is simply null and void. I'm not 18 anymore, if I were to draw a good piece and upload it, I'd do it without much fanfare. But as artists with whom I collabed with can attest, I always give credit where it is due.

I feel whenever I say I'll quit art I just wait twelve hours to come back harder than before!

For now I'll focus on some sketches I had on my paper pile.

After being asked three times in a row if it's my first time drawing or just being told bluntly that I suck my brain clicked the "I gotta get good".... and I ended up burning a folder with sketches. If drawing ain't something I'm good at, maybe some day I'll reincarnate in one of those fucked up flammentruppen burning down villages and shit. I'm a piece of shit anyway, so who cares about the morals? Had I cared before I wouldn't be alone now thinking about ending it all with a bang. Whimpering. Shit.

Woke up.

Sober.

I'll try not to overdo my meds.

Best nap ever.

Woke up horny as all fuck.

I should stop sucking the long dick of misery and do things as I like them (if I like them)

Today's starting alright and I'll keep it that way, grateful with what I have and not ambitious for what I could get. Just let things come naturally =)

Well, the account is going nowhere, I'm unhappy with my art and I feel like my social skills are outmatched by a rock. I feel like I wanna give up and rest but at the same time I wanna draw something good and get the deserved recognition....

I'll draw some simple, easy stuff to keep uploading but damn, I got bogged down with a comic I've been working on since last month...