Fuck. - by Mazooe

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Fuck.

Posted by Mazooe - 3 days ago

I give up.

I'm sick of this shit. I know, I know "git gud" or "It takes time and practice" but I'm a month away from being even closer to 30 and a fucking kid outdid my work in ten fucking minutes.... and I snapped, because drawing for me is a language and I'm speaking a dead language while I can't keep up with the kids and their new lingo. I'm a foreigner. A stranger in a strange land.

SAD GIRL! - SO EASY A KID CAN DO HER!

While I never strived to be good or have a specific style... seeing my creation being perfected by others.... yeah, it's over.

Never an artist was I, nor shall I be.

Goodbye.

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phantomnoiz 2024-06-15 01:37:53

hey bro i just went thru something like this, just keep going who cares if it looks like anybody else just keep going

Mazooe 2024-06-15 01:37:53

The thing is... I care.

thepixelizer 2024-06-15 01:57:49

Practice doesn't make you better no no, learning makes you better, you have to get out of your comfort zone and do research, learn how light refracts and absorbs, learn anatomy, learn point perspective, learn anatomy proportions, learn art construction, color theory. Colored light, colored shadows, cast shadows, form shadows, subsurface scattering, etc all these things are on YouTube and Google for completely free if you search.

Mazooe 2024-06-15 01:57:49

Don't you think I tried? Many times before? I did and yet there's a generation of kids who can outdo my years of practice. Besides, my character wasn't meant to look "good" but seeing how the minimum effort by someone else to draw her ends up so beautiful is a salt rub on a wound.

AlfaFranek 2024-06-15 02:00:06

I'm struggling with drawing as well, or anything else really, and life will show me everyday day how much other people are better than me, either with tempo of work, quality of work, ideas etc.
It do be like this for me for like 7 years now. Probably not as long as you struggle but oh well.

Mazooe 2024-06-15 02:00:06

I gave up entirely. My sister has a successful cosplayer career, my brother's a 3D printer guy and I'm holding the house selling my ass online because I can't do anything else.

It's like suicide but alive.

AlfaFranek 2024-06-15 16:27:17

@Mazooe My one friend is modding games, other is making an audio program, other is drawing his heart out while having very limited time for it and I'm stuck with my addictions and lazyness. Feels like others are harvesting beutiful flowers or solid trees, and I'm having a fucking weed that just wastes resources.
Competing over who has worse has no sense, so just stop that.

Mazooe 2024-06-15 16:27:17

I wouldn't say "worse" or "better" in my case it's more like I just realised I'm old and all I do is work while the rest scratches their bollocks two hands. I don't feel outright miserable but I do feel useless in everything.

CankerousKitty 2024-06-15 17:37:08

I’m surprised that the children that visit your newsposts haven’t yet realised that your entire account history is baiting for sympathy.

Mazooe 2024-06-15 17:37:08

I guess it has nothing to do with the 50 pieces of art I posted, nah, it's all attention whoring, right? Because it seems to have caught your attention you fucking bacillus ridden rat-shit
son of a cocksucking whore.