Unsurprisingly I take Xanax. Lots of Xanax. I'm talking about six miligrams per day minimum. They were prescribed to me (and my beloved mother) but she found out I'm taking "way above the regular dose" and I was cut cold on my Xanax doses. I literally can't remember a day I haven't swallowed at least four of those just to get through stress, anxiety and agoraphobia. And now withdrawal is kicking in, paranoia and panic attacks on sight and worst of all? I have to "behave" properly or I'm kicked out of my house in a week.

I am royally fucked. I'm not even a messy junky. I just *need* those pills to not drown in my own anxiety...