A few hours ago I came back from a convention on Anime Idols and boy...

It was a big, long hall full of stands with nicely homemade merchandise (even food stands, it's been a while since I see one of these in a geek con) but honestly it didn't took an hour until i felt alone, like i didn't fit in. Granted I went mostly because my sister was doing a Ramuda (HypMic) cosplay and even did an amazing dance at the end but holy shit. Cosplayers build their own posses, cliques and if you're not "them" you're less than a human. I spent most of the event (7hrs total kinda) just walking around trying to look for people to talk to (more than 1k people) and I never felt more alone in my life. It was hard for me to grasp the amount of people there, each and everyone in their own bubbles.

The music was unsurprisingly shit but what really made me go take a furious piss was the microphone quality and the host being a 40 something cosplayers acting like she's 15, grow the fuck up.

I got to meet a fellow artist who was also feeling rather alone (she was there on business) and we talked a while, I tried giving her my phone number and her response was a cold "i have a boyfriend"

I ended up falling asleep on the benches when the whole thing started to shut down.

Now, I know I'm socially awkward and introverted myself, but lately I'm seeing a lot more of an "elitistic" behaviour in cosplayers. My sister quickly made a group of friends and we basically spent separate days in the same place, she had fun, friends and concerts. I had... Well, I realised for the first time in my life that I've nothing unique or useful to myself....

I gotta say, it was a shitfest.

At least I drew a Sad Girl...