I reached 50 fans but at what cost? Why? My art sucks, I can't put up anything new, I can barely wake up before the sun sets and I don't even know if I'll live another week. I lost my closest supporters and fans in less than a week, I'm more of a problem than a solution to *anyone*... Why? Why am I blessed with good people around me just to witness my self indulgent agony? What's the next step?... I would know if I had someone or something to work with...