Mazooe 2024-11-27 12:26:44

The Foo Fighters? Nah, but really the guy was trying to encourage me to get back to drawing in a really passive aggressive manner and he "couldn't stand" seeing me sad. I gave myself a pause from art (in general, not just drawing) and I feel that if I wanted I could perhaps draw in better quality, do better things, expand upon my gallery. But I don't have the drive for it and that's ok. My life is not pending on "If or if I don't" draw. I do some doodles to amuse my sister, I sometimes write ideas for stories and maybe some day, month or year I'll have it drawn. But blocking me because I tried to explain that drawing was being both mentally and emotionally exhausting? That's just immature. I prefer the honesty of someone leaving me to handle myself alone than someone who even brags about "having tried" and leaving because "I don't understand anymore"

Mazooe 2024-11-27 12:29:34

Thanks. I do admit I'm overly dramatic most of the time but that's because art has a heavy emotional value to me and sometimes I prefer to quit art and return when I'm confindent than to be told the same olds "You'll get better with practice" "We all suck at the start" "Don't compare yourself to others"

I understand the need to encougare and I appreciate it but it hurt he didn't take into consideration that I'm quitting because I end up in a loop of loving what I do, being self critical, being overwhelmed by better artists, feeling my art is awful and trying again, but since I'm feeling down even if my drawings were passable I'd hate them because I'm not feeling well. All in all it felt more like he was forcing me to draw rather than encouraging me. People see art differently, for me it's an expression of the soul and if my whole being is not balanced to print that expression it's better to save it for later than to force myself and fall into a rabbit hole of depression. Am I competitive? Naturally, I like to learn from artists I like, I like to mix my styles, I like to add a narrative to my drawings and of course that makes me "compare" myself to other works (Which isn't always negative).

People with this stupid "Just be happy" mindset don't understand that sadness is also an important feeling that one should learn to overcome. I've been trying hobbies (Really, I haven't played video games in months) and writing short stories to fill the void and it's been helpful.

Mazooe 2024-11-27 14:58:58

Thanks guy, also amazing film PFP

I'm thinking of quitting drawing for posting if I make myself clear. I work as a kindergarten and elementary school teacher and I work a lot doing doodles and I enjoy my spare time drawing random stuff on an actual sketchbook. I think I might just log off from drawing digital and going back to drawing for fun, for myself. Maybe then I can talk about feeling better.