So your motivation is social interaction.
Time pass, people go, things ends, nothing lasts, but if there's something that do stay forever : it's literally the infinite. We are 8.025 billion on earth and 16.98M on Newgrounds according to some site ( •_•).
You can still make friends.
You may lounge for the long time spent with your previous one, but they have their life, and you have yours. You're still interested in art, in yourself, in the world, and it shows. So go and share your works.
See? You shared your thoughts on this new post, and I came to discuss to you, and loved your art. Im interacting with you and I would NEVER knew you if you didn't go and expressed your thoughts!
So don't ever give up. Don't ever hate yourself.
Something I tell myself is : why wishing the best for someone you hate? After all, if I hated myself, I would wish (and seek!) to be punished! But It's not the case. I wish for things to get better and I'm sure it's the same for you, so love yourself.
"We protect what we love, and we love what we protect".
Start loving yourself. Art is part of you, so if you hate yourself, you will ultimately hate your work too.
Love yourself :3
SouSTAR
Protip : don't listen to your thoughts when you already have a low opinion of yourself.
You're not boring and certainly not a log, so you're even less of a "boring log"!
You're right on some points though : art ≠ good.
Art is the expression of oneself. Bad art is when you badly expressed yourself. Good art is when you expressed your feelings in an understable manner. Both are art.
Whatever it's sadness, happiness, the lounging for a better time, silly cats, anger, cute girls, humanity's greatest mistakes or the innocent wonders of a child, "art is art".
As for effort, effort doesn't mean anything without study and work. What to study? How to work? Lemme tell ya : you work however you want, study whatever you want, but get the stuff done if you want to progress.
Some people have been drawing for years and are still "bad" because they haven't studied nor worked for the skills.
And work doesn't mean anything without motivation. So find your motivation. Your motivation is to see more fans? Seek for them. Reach for attention by being engaging.
Some final words : "make art like a child" and "take your mental state as seriously as a runner take his physical injuries".
Experiment like a child, they don't care if glitter and glue doesn't mix they will mix it anyway! Be like them!
We hope the best for you :)
Mazooe
Thanks dude, really and I'm really hoping those words come true some day again. I used to sit back listening to Soundgarden or Alice in Chains just drawing silly situations of my life and having fun. Now I feel like even if I had all the time and talent in the world I'd freeze at the thought of drawing anything. It's an horrible phobia and something I wished I could find some cure for. I did some doodles over the year but I still feel empty, like that "silly girl drawing her persona while listening Primus" is dead and I just became a mechanincal thing, doing everything like a robot. And it sucks because even in my free time watching movies or playing games I take my time to appreciate the artistic appeal, visuals, graphics, filming style, soundtrack. And I wished I had it back, the "ammo" to draw what I feel, what I like, to have the balls to share and enjoy again.
Drawing was all my life something social, I couldn't draw anything without sharing it just for the fun of it, I didn't seek to be the next big thing or anything, just have fun with my artist friends, but the more they left me (Spoiler: I have none left) or got careers and forgot about me, the less I enjoyed drawing and the more I resented art itself. I just gave up on it, I felt it was a hobby as dumb as film reviewing or video games (despite loving both) But my heart still feels empty without having something to post here or to show to someone and feel a bit glad or proud that I made *something*...